Cinemorphosis

Tag: romance

  • French Kiss and the Death of Romance: When Below Deck Became a Funeral

    French Kiss and the Death of Romance: When Below Deck Became a Funeral

    Lionel Richie’s memoir Truly apparently shocked a reviewer who couldn’t fathom how a man who wrote love ballads for The Commodores and crooned “Hello” into the hearts of millions might secretly doubt the existence of love. If the critic wants evidence, there’s no need to psychoanalyze Lionel; just watch the single most soul-evaporating hour of television I’ve ever endured: Below Deck Mediterranean, Season 10, Episode 8—“French Kiss.”

    Normally I treat Below Deck like a sushi boat of human dysfunction: the ostentation, the vanity, the moral anemia. It’s a circus, and I laugh at the performers. But this episode wasn’t a circus. It was a funeral for romance. The premise is already laughable: a 47-year-old bachelor named Joe “auditions” several women to be his wife. He speaks to them like he’s onboarding interns at a failing startup. He uses phrases like “I need your input” and “I’m sorry you find this challenging,” as though he’s gently disciplining HR for mishandling toner orders.

    The beloved stewardess Aesha started off as the show’s only beacon of naive hope. She snacks on popcorn and chirps, “Watching people find love before my eyes—how could I be anything but happy?” By midpoint, that optimism has withered. She, like the viewer, recognizes the obvious: there is no love—only a clumsy negotiation between bored women and a man who reeks of conditional stock options.

    The contestants have the haunted eyes of veterans who’ve survived multiple seasons of “influencer courtship.” They aren’t seeking affection; they’re calculating ROI. Joe himself looks twenty years older than his claimed 47. He carries the aesthetic of a divorced CFO who hasn’t smiled sincerely since the recession. He is oily without passion, exhausted without wisdom—exactly the kind of man who believes communication is a spreadsheet. Instead of a heartbeat, he has a lexicon of “deliverables.”

    His problem, though, isn’t age or looks—it’s the dead chill of someone who sold his soul years ago and is now smug about the deal. He assumes that murmuring corporate jargon at the women like an AI trained on LinkedIn posts will hypnotize them into matrimony. It doesn’t. They recoil. They see a man who mistakes “calm negotiation” for charisma, and professionalism for intimacy.

    Bravo should have buried this episode in a vault. It is the franchise’s Everest of bad judgment. Aesha says as much near the end, visibly deflated, calling the whole experiment depressing. And then comes the exit: Joe limps away from the yacht, placing an arm around one contestant who tolerates him the way one tolerates a damp dog during a neighborhood walk. The moment the cameras cut, you know she’ll ghost him with the velocity of a SpaceX launch.

    If you adore Lionel Richie but want to taste the sour, loveless void that haunts his darker thoughts, skip the therapy and watch “French Kiss.” Romance will die before your eyes, and you’ll understand exactly why a man who wrote “Endless Love” now wonders whether love exists at all.

  • Thou Shalt Remember That All First Dates End in Either Ecstasy or Insurance Claims

    Thou Shalt Remember That All First Dates End in Either Ecstasy or Insurance Claims

    It was my sophomore year, and I was about to experience that sacred American ritual—the first date. My friends, those benevolent saboteurs, set me up with Elizabeth Lane, a British exchange student whose accent alone made her sound too sophisticated for our zip code. Six of us crammed into Gil Gutierrez’s orange Karmann Ghia, a car roughly the size of a lunchbox. Rick Galia and his girlfriend, Cheryl Atkins, volunteered to ride in the trunk, which should’ve been an omen that this night would go sideways.

    Dinner was at a pizza chain—where all romance goes to die—and then we saw One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest at a theater in Hayward. It took me about ten minutes to realize that a film set in a psychiatric ward wasn’t ideal for stirring teenage lust. Meanwhile, I was sweating through my shirt like a man auditioning for Fear Factor. I couldn’t stop thinking about a puberty documentary I’d seen in biology class—the one where a trembling boy on the phone with a girl exposed a massive pit stain to the audience. The thought haunted me.

    Midway through the film, Elizabeth rubbed her boot against the metal back of the chair in front of her. The sound—sticky, squealing, soda-coated—was the mating call of mortification. She did it again. Heads turned. Shushes hissed. I sank into my seat, spiritually liquefied, praying for the mercy of a stroke.

    To my left, Rick and Cheryl were making out like postwar lovers at a train station. When the credits rolled, Rick announced, “I have no idea what that movie was about, but I sure had a great time.”

    Back in the car, Gutierrez drove while Rick and Cheryl wedged themselves into the back seat with Elizabeth and me, a sardine orgy of hormonal chaos. As we climbed Greenridge Road, my heart was pounding in that dumb, hopeful way teenage hearts do. When we reached my house—an Eichler with glass walls, juniper bushes, and a kumquat tree that never bore fruit—I told Elizabeth I’d had a good time.

    She removed her gum, leaned in, and kissed me. Her tongue entered my mouth like a diplomatic envoy. The flavor was cinnamon, fierce and chemical, like a fireball candy soaked in gasoline. It was the first real kiss of my life—and possibly the last before divine punishment intervened.

    Suddenly, something primal overtook me. I emitted a guttural scream—a noise that belonged in the fossil record—and shot upright so violently that my head ripped through the fabric roof of the convertible. The others stared in awe as my torso protruded from the car like a deranged periscope.

    Gutierrez was horrified. “What the hell did you do, McMahon?”

    “I don’t know,” I said. “But I think I’m stuck.”

    Neighbors emerged, lured by my banshee howl. Thor, Cal Stamenov’s monstrous Great Dane, barked with glowing eyes like Cerberus guarding the gates of Hell.

    “You destroyed my brother’s car!” Gutierrez shouted.

    “The car can be repaired,” I said. “But my psychological damage is irreversible.”

    He glared. “What are you talking about?”

    “In what world do I come out of this with a shred of dignity?”

    The crowd laughed. My father arrived with a police flashlight, his expression hovering between despair and amusement. “Jeff, is that you?”

    “Unfortunately.”

    He extracted me from the car like a sword from the stone. I brushed flecks of torn fabric off my shirt and muttered, “Don’t worry, I’ll pay the deductible.”

    Gutierrez sighed. “Forget it. Migliore’s dad owns an auto shop.”

    Galia grinned. “That must’ve been one hell of a kiss, McMahon. Sent you straight to the moon.”

    I went inside, dignity in shreds, adrenaline still sizzling. In bed, reading a bodybuilding magazine for moral repair, I confessed my disaster to Master Po.

    “Grasshopper,” he said, “you must treat yourself gently.”

    “What the hell is that supposed to mean?”

    “You are a sacred vessel, yet you try to manhandle your emotions like barbells. Control is your idol. But The Way requires grace.”

    “Grace?” I said. “I just decapitated a convertible.”

    “Then perhaps,” he said, “next time, breathe gently and let go.”

    “I can’t,” I said. “I’m a control freak. Controlled by the need to control.”

    “That,” said Master Po, “is why you tear through roofs. You follow the path of excess, not balance.”

    I stared at the ceiling, still tasting cinnamon gum. “I’d love to ponder that,” I said. “But right now, I’m too busy chewing on the flavor of humiliation.”

  • Thou Shalt Remember That Silence Can Wound More Deeply Than Cruelty

    Thou Shalt Remember That Silence Can Wound More Deeply Than Cruelty

    It was a Friday night at Castro Valley High, that weekly pageant of teenage aggression disguised as school spirit. The bleachers were packed with hormonal thunder; the air reeked of nacho cheese and Axe body spray. And then the rain came, that democratic force that flattens everyone’s hair and dignity alike.

    Across the stands, I saw her—the girl the boys called Tasmanian Devil. I didn’t know her name. No one did. She was a broad-shouldered girl with a face that inspired the cruel kind of laughter—the kind that hides insecurity behind volume. Her twin brother was in the special ed class with her, and their father, the school’s enormous janitor, lumbered around campus in denim overalls so faded they looked ghostly. His ears were so large they could have doubled as warning flags—and he had passed them on to his children, a hereditary curse of ridicule.

    They lived in a trailer next to the football field, an eternal reminder that some people never get to leave campus. That night she sat alone in the bleachers while the rain came down in cold, merciless sheets. Her hair clung to her forehead like seaweed, and black mascara streamed down her face like ink from a wounded pen.

    She stared out at the field with a look that broke something inside me—a look that said, I know the joke, and I know I’m the punchline. I know no one will ever love me, and I will always be an outsider.

    I wanted to call her over, to hand her my jacket, to do anything that resembled decency—but I did nothing. I sat there with my friends, pretending to watch the game, while she drowned in rain and loneliness.

    That night, guilt chewed through me like battery acid. I told Master Po about it—my silence, my self-loathing.

    “Master Po, I can’t forgive myself for doing nothing.”

    He looked at me the way only the wise can—equal parts compassion and indictment.

    “Grasshopper,” he said, “being angry with yourself achieves nothing. Flogging yourself achieves nothing. Shoveling hatred over yourself achieves nothing. If you wish to help those who have no place in this world, you must first make peace with yourself. The wise help others not because they are saints, but because they are whole.”

    I lay awake that night thinking about the girl in the rain—how she seemed to know her fate, and how I had rehearsed mine: a spectator of suffering, paralyzed by self-awareness. It was the night I learned the cruelest sin isn’t mockery. It’s inaction dressed up as reflection.

  • The Pool of Sorrow, the Magic Towel, and the Heavy-Duty Radio

    The Pool of Sorrow, the Magic Towel, and the Heavy-Duty Radio

    Last night, I dreamed I was nineteen again—muscular, misfit, and miserably alone. In this grim redux of my youth, I spent my days floating in what I now call The Pool of Sorrow, a sunlit rectangle of water where I wept at the shallow end, pressed against the concrete like a man sentenced to purgatory via chlorination. Beside me sat a black labrador, nameless but noble, whose soft howls echoed my despair. I stroked his damp fur. He leaned into my touch. We were two abandoned souls, bound by melancholy and mutual need.

    Something changed. Maybe it was the dog’s quiet loyalty, or the absurd beauty of the moment. I returned to bodybuilding with manic fervor and resumed clean eating as if redemption could be measured in grams of protein. My body sculpted itself back into its mythic prime, and soon I was posing poolside in black-and-white glamour shots—oiled up like a Greek statue, grinning with an almost religious clarity. The dog watched my transformation with admiration, tail thumping like a metronome of approval.

    Now that I looked like a well-oiled demigod, I needed to promote myself. I searched the streets of San Francisco for an influencer. I found him in a San Francisco alley behind a velvet curtain. Tom Wizard. Pale, lanky, vaguely elfin, Tom agreed to help me make my photos go viral. But there was a catch. “You love the dog too much,” he warned. “Be more aloof.”

    Naturally, I did the opposite. I hugged the dog. Whispered sweet canine nothings. Called him my soulmate. Tom watched this display of defiance and smiled like a gatekeeper pleased with an unexpected answer.

    “You’ve passed the Dog Test,” he said, handing me two gifts. The first: a large, coral-orange Magic Towel, woven with healing properties. It could dry you off and erase your deepest psychological wounds. The second: admittance to a Harvard night class where I’d learn to wield the towel’s powers properly.

    Harvard, it turns out, was a dump. The class was run by Professor Kildare, a stout bureaucrat with the warmth of a refrigerator. He vanished often—wrapped up in legal issues—leaving the course in the calloused hands of three grad students who resembled hungover dockworkers. They smoked indoors, bickered about their failed marriages, and offered nothing resembling instruction.

    In that dimly lit classroom, I met a woman who looked exactly like Sutton Foster. She whispered that her eczema came from childhood trauma. I swore on my Magic Towel I’d cure her. She believed me. That was enough.

    One day, one of the grad students—Jimbo, a lemon-faced scowler in sun-bleached overalls—presented a radio. “Useless junk,” he said. “Dead as a doornail.”

    I stood, seized the radio, adjusted its telescopic antenna, and revealed its miraculous clarity. Music blared. Static disappeared. Everyone gawked like I’d just raised Lazarus with a dial.

    Jimbo lunged for it. I blocked him. “You had your chance,” I said. “This radio is mine now.”

    I flapped the Magic Towel with dramatic flair. A colossal truck, part semi, part spaceship, pulled up outside. Sutton and I climbed its twenty-foot ladder toward the cockpit. Jimbo and his cronies gave chase, but I yanked the ladder up behind us, sending them tumbling like sitcom villains. The truck roared to life.

    Sutton sat beside me, silent but radiant with hope. The Heavy-Duty Radio crackled softly behind us, the Magic Towel folded in my lap like a relic of prophecy. We barreled into the night. I didn’t know if I could cure her eczema or heal her past, but I knew this: I had a truck, a towel, a miracle radio, and a mission. And sometimes, that’s enough.

  • Arm-Wrestling My Way into Belonging

    Arm-Wrestling My Way into Belonging

    Last night, I had a dream so vivid it might as well have come with a recruitment brochure. Word had spread—apparently my reputation as the guy who could teach college football players to write sentences that didn’t cause nosebleeds had reached mythical status. Somewhere in South Carolina, perched on a beach with the casual arrogance of a luxury condo, a university decided they needed me. Urgently.

    Some guy—I don’t remember his name, only that he had the calm urgency of a cult recruiter—convinced me to hop on a bus. The ride took five seconds. Not metaphorically. Five actual seconds. Blink and boom: there I was, standing on a beach so perfect it made the California coast look like an overhyped sandbox.

    The air was humid but in a sensual, Southern Gothic sort of way. The kind of air that makes you forgive mosquitoes and contemplate linen pants. The sun was melting into the Atlantic like it had nowhere better to be. I was home, or something like it.

    Coaches greeted me like I’d just been drafted into sainthood. Players clapped me on the back and called me “Coach,” which I didn’t correct because, frankly, it felt good. Then came the arm wrestling. One by one, I took them down like some middle-aged Hercules hopped up on tenure and protein powder. Elbow to the table, bicep to the heavens. I wasn’t just respected—I was essential.

    It wasn’t about strength. It was about belonging. Every laugh, every handshake, every ridiculous display of masculine absurdity made me feel needed in a way that was almost embarrassing. I wasn’t just part of the team. I was the team.

    I wanted to call my wife back in California, to tell her we were moving. I had found the Promised Land, and it came with free gym access and a faculty parking permit. But the joyous noise around me was too loud. The players were hooting, the coaches were laughing, and the ocean kept slapping the shore like it had something to prove. I’d call her later, I told myself.

    Then I woke up.

    The ceiling fan was rattling. My desire for dark roast coffee was pressing. And I was back in the real world, where my inbox was probably filled with late assignments and vague threats from the IT department.

    Still, the dream stuck with me. Not because of the location, or the humidity, or the freakish arm strength—but because of the feeling. That feeling of being wanted. Of being part of something. Of mattering.

    There is no substitute for that. None.

  • How to Pick Up Girls and Get Stung by Reality

    How to Pick Up Girls and Get Stung by Reality

    The 70s were a carnival of ostentation and fakery. You strutted through junior high dances in Angels Flight bell-bottoms, paisley Dacron shirts, platform shoes, and pukka shell necklaces. In summer, you bared your tanned chest in fishnet tank tops and more gold chains than a Vegas lounge singer. Instead of building character, you sculpted a persona: muscular, flamboyant, visually arresting.

    Even your face had to match your aesthetic. Inspired by the Cosmopolitan magazine’s “Bachelor of the Month,” you fixated on cheekbones and jawlines. Compared to Robert Conrad or Jan-Michael Vincent, you came up short. So you sucked in your cheeks—first occasionally, then obsessively—until you learned to speak while biting the inside of your face. You’d come home with raw, bleeding cheeks. You’d walk through school with puffed lats and exaggerated posture, only to be mocked by your classmates.

    You were the punchline of a sitcom, a caricature of yourself.

    This was the decade of the Mock Apple Pie—Ritz Crackers masquerading as apples. Authenticity took a back seat. Fakery got shotgun.

    Perhaps the high priest of this philosophy was a man you called Frank Reeves.

    It was the summer of 1977. You were spending every Saturday at Cull Canyon Lake, slathered in Hawaiian Tropic Dark Tanning Oil—zero SPF, all banana-scented seduction. And every weekend, there he was: Frank Reeves. Late twenties. Owner of a black 1976 Camaro with white racing stripes. Wavy brown hair, manicured mustache, deep tan, blue Speedos, white puka shells, and a gold chain glistening over his chest hair. He carried a Playboy cooler, a boombox, and a Frisbee, and he reeled in women like it was a sport.

    You noticed that he always said the same things in the same order. Every Saturday, it was: “Paid my uncle five hundred for that paint job… Dad owns clothing stores… Helped him manage since high school… Waiting on a Hollywood callback… Own my own house in Parsons Estates.” He said “Parsons Estates” like it was a holy incantation.

    Frank Reeves wasn’t just a cliché. He was a walking, Speedo-clad composite of How to Pick Up Girls!—Eric Weber’s infamous book of manipulation. You recognized his lines. You knew the script. He embodied the Playboy ideal: cosmopolitan, cocky, a god in his own eyes. And every Saturday, a new woman bought the lie.

    You watched him work, all while reading your parents’ paperback version of The Happy Hooker on your beach towel. Then came the bee sting. A shriek. A girl gasped. “You stepped on a bee!”

    Reeves tried to laugh it off, but his swollen foot looked like a smoked ham. Sweat poured down his chest. He collapsed, hyperventilating. Paramedics came. He was in anaphylactic shock.

    You never found out if he survived. But the image stuck: a man all pose, no substance. A fake warrior devoted to a fake gospel. And like all fakes, he was eventually undone by something real—a bee, of all things. A tiny truth with a stinger.

  • Nicknames Are a Life Sentence

    Nicknames Are a Life Sentence

    You sat in the soaked bleachers of Canyon High on a rainy Friday night, the stadium lights casting a sickly greenish-yellow haze across the field. The Canyon Cougars were facing off against the Hayward Farmers, but all eyes were on their freshman linebacker phenom, Jack Del Rio—part football player, part demigod in cleats.

    Next to you, Liz huddled under a massive umbrella. Between the two of you sat a bag of popcorn that had long since surrendered to the rain, each kernel tasting like soggy regret.

    Off to the side, you noticed the girl they called the Tasmanian Devil. She was marooned on a solitary slab of bleacher, her jacket soaked, mascara melting like the villain in a low-budget horror flick. No umbrella, no allies, just rain and raw adolescence.

    “Tasmanian Devil’s got that look,” you said to Liz, chewing a kernel that crumbled into sadness on your tongue.

    “What look?” she asked.

    “The one that says she knows her life is a steaming pile of crap.”

    Liz nodded slowly. “Poor thing.”

    “Do we even know her real name?” you asked.

    She gave a small shrug.

    “Exactly. She’s been sentenced to that nickname for life. Might as well tattoo it on her forehead.”

    As the game dragged on, the rain lightened into a mist, coating everything in a kind of apocalyptic glow. The crowd buzzed as Del Rio took the field, and a man behind you barked, “That kid’s going pro, you mark my words.”

    You leaned toward Liz. “Jack Del Rio and the Tasmanian Devil—two trains, opposite tracks. One’s off to glory, the other’s derailing into a swamp.”

    “We could invite her over,” Liz offered.

    You waved like a deranged game show host. “Need an umbrella? Want to join us?”

    She shook her head. Her eyes stayed on the ground. Her jacket soaked through like a sponge left in a car wash.

    “At least you tried,” Liz said with a sympathetic smile.

    You shifted the conversation. “You mad at your dad?”

    “No,” you said, surprising even yourself. “If anything, I’m relieved. There’s less tension now. No more walking on eggshells.”

    Liz nodded. “After my dad left, my mom never dated. She’s allergic to men. She’s got this fortress of piano recitals, farmer’s markets, and gin rummy with Grandma. Her friend circle is basically a man-repellent sorority.”

    You sighed. “I’m dreading my mom dating. She’s too nice, too open. Men could run circles around her.”

    “You can’t control everything,” Liz said.

    “There’s this awful book called How to Pick Up Girls! It’s like a predator’s playbook. If some sleazeball uses that on her, I swear I’ll Hulk out.”

    Liz laughed. “You can’t be a bouncer at your own house.”

    You squared your shoulders. “Watch me.”

  • The Cinnamon Apocalypse

    The Cinnamon Apocalypse

    You shaved with your father’s vintage Gillette Super Speed razor and immediately sliced the tip of your chin. A small crimson droplet formed—a blood-signed pact with manhood. You showered, scrubbed away the dried blood, threw on jeans, and topped it off with your prized Larry Csonka Miami Dolphins jersey.

    When you stepped into the living room, your mother was parked on the couch, Carly Simon lamenting through the speakers as she ate raw hamburger meat with Lawry’s Seasoned Salt, her fingers slick and red like she’d just committed a low-grade crime. She stared forward with the calm of someone contemplating Earth’s pending expiration date.

    “Mom, can’t you cook that?” you asked, half-gagging, half-pleading.

    Without looking at you, she speared another bloody hunk and took a bite.

    Then came the honk. You bolted outside to find Gutierrez in his orange Karmann Ghia, a discount rock star with his bushy sideburns. Susan Bowman, the blonde British exchange student, sat next to him. Crammed in the back were Rick Galia, Cheryl Atkins, and Liz Murphy, packed tighter than socks in a suitcase.

    “I can’t fit,” you said.

    “No problem,” Galia said. “Cheryl and I will get in the trunk.”

    “You can’t be serious.”

    “We’re creating a mobile make-out den. McMahon, close the trunk.”

    You did.

    In the back seat with Liz, you caught the scent of strawberries and ginger from her hair and cinnamon gum on her breath. She looked like a holiday ornament come to life in her green sweater. Your hands were sweating like you were mid-squat with a barbell.

    You thought about that puberty film in biology—the one where a guy lifts his arms to reveal industrial-grade sweat stains. Not helpful.

    At the pizza parlor, you all hit the salad bar and settled in. Galia whipped out a wad of cash like a game show host. “Dinner’s on me.”

    Turns out his dad’s shark-bitten surfboard sold for two grand. You doubted the story until you remembered Galia could sell sand at the beach.

    You hated the pizza, said so, and earned your first dose of “Greenridge snob” accusations.

    Afterward, at the theater, Shampoo was sold out. So was The Apple Dumpling Gang. You all opted for One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, but had 40 minutes to kill.

    Truth or Dare began. Your confession? You had a cousin who dated Ginger from Gilligan’s Island. Weak. Then came the bionic beach vision fantasy. Stronger, but still humiliating.

    Liz, amused, asked if your muscles were bionic too and squeezed your bicep. You were melting inside.

    In the theater, she rubbed her boot against the metal chair in front of her. The sticky sound made you want to crawl into the floorboards. She did it again.

    “Please stop,” you whispered.

    She grinned. “Conditioning.”

    The other couples were busy kissing. You were busy dying inside.

    After the movie, you all piled back into the car. Cheryl sat on Galia’s lap. Gutierrez drove you home.

    Outside your Eichler house, you turned to Liz and mumbled something about a good time. She responded by popping her gum and planting a cinnamon tsunami of a kiss on you.

    And that’s when you snapped.

    With a caveman scream, you launched upward, tearing through the convertible’s soft top like a hormone-fueled jack-in-the-box. You stood half-exposed above the car as the others gawked in stunned silence.

    “What the hell, McMahon?” Gutierrez shouted.

    “I don’t know. I think I’m stuck.”

    Liz was laughing like a lunatic. Neighbors came out filming. A Great Dane named Thor barked in chaos.

    Then your dad appeared with a flashlight and a robe that looked like it had survived Woodstock. “Jeff?”

    “Unfortunately.”

    “I’ve got a hacksaw.”

    He sawed you free. You climbed out, brushed off the canvas bits, and said, “I’ll pay the deductible.”

    Gutierrez waved it off. Galia said the kiss must’ve been nuclear.

    You retreated to your room, tried to decompress with bodybuilding magazines, and realized your mouth still tasted like cinnamon.

  • How to Visualize Your Higher Self and Be a Fool at the Same Time

    How to Visualize Your Higher Self and Be a Fool at the Same Time

    By late morning at Canyon High, you had taken sanctuary in the Student Lounge—a sacred space masquerading as a study haven but better known for Olympic-level loafing and social maneuvering. Lined with shelves of crusty dictionaries and guarded by Mrs. Stinson at her post like a sloth in bifocals, the real action was found at the cushy couches. That’s where Paper Football reigned supreme: a sport that turned scrap paper into pigskin gold. Flick the triangle across the table. Let it hang off the edge—touchdown. Launch it between your opponent’s outstretched fingers—extra point. You figured ninety percent of student productivity was lost to this noble art.

    You were flopped on an orange couch, thumbing through Nectar in a Sieve, trying to survive its soul-crushing tour of starvation and sorrow, when your survival instincts kicked in. You swapped it out for a bodybuilding magazine. Surely a glimpse of sculpted abs and hypertrophic deltoids could rescue your psyche.

    That’s when Liz Murphy appeared—red hair blazing like a warning flare. Wearing a ketchup-colored tee and jeans, she plopped down beside you with the kind of energy that should be illegal before noon.

    “What are you reading?” she asked, peering at the magazine.

    “Article on Robbie Robinson. Some say his biceps peak is the best in history,” you said, delivering it with the gravitas of a man discussing global diplomacy.

    She raised an eyebrow at the photo. “You want to look like that?”

    “That’s the plan,” you said, puffing your chest with delusional pride.

    She squeezed your bicep. “I think you look perfect just the way you are.”

    “Perfect if you’re into track runners,” you said, trying to hide behind self-deprecating cool.

    Mrs. Stinson glared at the two of you from her help desk, her eyes sharp enough to etch disapproval into stone. You buried your nose in Robbie’s glistening biceps and pretended to read.

    Liz, undeterred, asked, “You seriously want to look like that?”

    “My goal,” you declared, slipping into motivational speaker mode, “is to become Mr. Universe, then open a gym in the Bahamas.”

    As the words exited your mouth, you immediately regretted them. But Liz didn’t blink.

    “That’s so cool. You’re only fourteen and already have goals.”

    “It’s called the Creative Visualization Principle,” you explained, summoning a vaguely authoritative tone. “You visualize your higher self, then manifest.”

    “Where’d you read that?”

    “My mom’s self-help books… or maybe one of these mags. I can’t remember.”

    “You crack me up,” she said, smiling.

    Then came your confession. “Liz, I did something gross. You might hate me.”

    “I doubt it,” she said, intrigued.

    You took a breath. “First day of school, I showed you a picture in that book. Said it was me hanging upside down on a chin-up bar.”

    “Yeah?”

    “It wasn’t me. I made it up. Just flat-out lied.”

    “Why?”

    “I don’t know. I wanted to impress you, I guess. And I’ve felt like a fraud ever since.”

    “I don’t hate you,” she said, calm and kind. “You were nervous. It’s not the end of the world.”

    You didn’t know what to say, so you nodded.

    After a pause, she asked, “There’s a dance Friday night.”

    You nodded again, unsure where this was going.

    “You going?”

    “Didn’t plan on it.”

    “Why not?”

    “I don’t like shaking my butt in public.”

    “If you go, I’ll slow dance with you. First dance—promise?”

    “Yeah,” you said, barely breathing. “Promise.”

    And just like that, your Friday night was rewritten by the girl you once lied to—and who somehow still wanted to be your first dance.

  • Lies, Lats, and Literature Class

    Lies, Lats, and Literature Class

    You had Pumping Iron sprawled on your desk like a sacred text while the Canyon High freshmen trickled into Mrs. Hanson’s English Literature class, each one a fidgeting, hormonal catastrophe. Glossy black-and-white photos of muscle-bound gods glared back at you from the pages, but it was the image of Mr. Universe Franco Columbu, hanging upside down from a chin-up bar like a meaty bat, that you kept flipping to. The photo was blurry and distant—just obscure enough that only a true disciple of the iron church could identify Columbu.

    Next to you sat Liz Murphy. Just last year, she was the gangly volleyball phenom from Earl Warren Junior High—the one the boys nicknamed “Giraffe,” “Horse,” or “Armadillo,” depending on the angle of cruelty. But over the summer, Liz had staged a Cinderella comeback. A Caribbean cruise had transformed her: her freckles softened into a copper glow, her limbs filled out like poetry, and her hair—now longer and looser—carried the faint scent of strawberries and ginger.

    You turned to her and said, “Hey, wanna see a picture of a bodybuilder at the beach?”

    She gave you a skeptical smile and leaned in.

    “See that guy hanging upside down?” you said, pointing at the photograph.

    “Holy smokes, he’s huge,” she said, staring wide-eyed.

    “That’s me,” you replied.

    She squinted, confused. “What?”

    “That’s me. Can’t you tell?”

    Her disbelief cracked just enough for hope to sneak in. “Oh my God… that’s you?”

    You nodded with solemn authority. “Yep.”

    And just like that, you slipped into your own fiction. You told her how you’d been visiting your grandparents in Los Angeles, hanging out with your bodybuilding pals at the beach, when someone snapped the photo. The lie came easy. Too easy. Her awe washed over you like warm sun, and for a few precious seconds, you felt seen. Not as the skinny kid you were—but as the chiseled hero you wanted to be.

    But then came the stomach-drop. The gnawing guilt. What kind of person, even at fourteen, spins a story so absurd just to taste a few seconds of admiration? You didn’t know. But if you had to trace it back—to find the origin of the myth-making—you might start in the treehouse of your childhood, the one where humiliation planted its flag and never truly left.