Last night, I dreamed I was nineteen again—muscular, misfit, and miserably alone. In this grim redux of my youth, I spent my days floating in what I now call The Pool of Sorrow, a sunlit rectangle of water where I wept at the shallow end, pressed against the concrete like a man sentenced to purgatory via chlorination. Beside me sat a black labrador, nameless but noble, whose soft howls echoed my despair. I stroked his damp fur. He leaned into my touch. We were two abandoned souls, bound by melancholy and mutual need.
Something changed. Maybe it was the dog’s quiet loyalty, or the absurd beauty of the moment. I returned to bodybuilding with manic fervor and resumed clean eating as if redemption could be measured in grams of protein. My body sculpted itself back into its mythic prime, and soon I was posing poolside in black-and-white glamour shots—oiled up like a Greek statue, grinning with an almost religious clarity. The dog watched my transformation with admiration, tail thumping like a metronome of approval.
Now that I looked like a well-oiled demigod, I needed to promote myself. I searched the streets of San Francisco for an influencer. I found him in a San Francisco alley behind a velvet curtain. Tom Wizard. Pale, lanky, vaguely elfin, Tom agreed to help me make my photos go viral. But there was a catch. “You love the dog too much,” he warned. “Be more aloof.”
Naturally, I did the opposite. I hugged the dog. Whispered sweet canine nothings. Called him my soulmate. Tom watched this display of defiance and smiled like a gatekeeper pleased with an unexpected answer.
“You’ve passed the Dog Test,” he said, handing me two gifts. The first: a large, coral-orange Magic Towel, woven with healing properties. It could dry you off and erase your deepest psychological wounds. The second: admittance to a Harvard night class where I’d learn to wield the towel’s powers properly.
Harvard, it turns out, was a dump. The class was run by Professor Kildare, a stout bureaucrat with the warmth of a refrigerator. He vanished often—wrapped up in legal issues—leaving the course in the calloused hands of three grad students who resembled hungover dockworkers. They smoked indoors, bickered about their failed marriages, and offered nothing resembling instruction.
In that dimly lit classroom, I met a woman who looked exactly like Sutton Foster. She whispered that her eczema came from childhood trauma. I swore on my Magic Towel I’d cure her. She believed me. That was enough.
One day, one of the grad students—Jimbo, a lemon-faced scowler in sun-bleached overalls—presented a radio. “Useless junk,” he said. “Dead as a doornail.”
I stood, seized the radio, adjusted its telescopic antenna, and revealed its miraculous clarity. Music blared. Static disappeared. Everyone gawked like I’d just raised Lazarus with a dial.
Jimbo lunged for it. I blocked him. “You had your chance,” I said. “This radio is mine now.”
I flapped the Magic Towel with dramatic flair. A colossal truck, part semi, part spaceship, pulled up outside. Sutton and I climbed its twenty-foot ladder toward the cockpit. Jimbo and his cronies gave chase, but I yanked the ladder up behind us, sending them tumbling like sitcom villains. The truck roared to life.
Sutton sat beside me, silent but radiant with hope. The Heavy-Duty Radio crackled softly behind us, the Magic Towel folded in my lap like a relic of prophecy. We barreled into the night. I didn’t know if I could cure her eczema or heal her past, but I knew this: I had a truck, a towel, a miracle radio, and a mission. And sometimes, that’s enough.
Cinemorphosis 
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