Last night, around 2 a.m., just as Jonah Goldberg of The Remnant podcast was deep in philosophical flirtation with Yale’s Steven Smith over Leo Strauss, I passed out—headphones still in, brain still humming.
And then the dream began.
I found myself in my grandfather’s old house in San Pedro, a stuccoed mid-century bunker that always smelled faintly of pipe smoke and baked ziti. Inside the library—yes, he had a library—Goldberg and Smith were now with me, and the three of us were doing what all good podcasters and aging humanities majors dream of doing: pulling crumbly tomes off dusty shelves, quoting Epictetus, Hobbes, and Plato as if our curated selections might finally bring Western Civilization back from the brink.
Each book we grabbed opened, magically, to the exact passage we were about to reference—as if we were wielding Philosopher’s Stones bound in cracked leather. This was not casual reading. It was apocalypse-proof intellectual spelunking.
Then I noticed something troubling.
Through the window, I saw a teenage blonde girl in a baby-blue station wagon idling at the curb. She looked like a cross between a cheerleader and a Bond villain’s niece—beautiful, yes, but with the dead-eyed calm of someone about to burn down your ideas with surgical precision. Turns out she was an operative, dispatched by some shadowy organization convinced that our late-night Straussian exegesis was a threat to human progress.
Naturally, I sprinted outside, confronted her, and commandeered the station wagon—which, of course, was loaded with weapons. Jonah, ever the podcast professional, called “his people” to secure the contraband.
But there was a cost.
Simply standing too close to the weapons cache scrambled the circuitry of my brain. My synapses went sideways, and a mysterious doctor appeared—seemingly conjured from a BBC miniseries and a Jungian archetype—with a scroll. Not a Kindle, not a clipboard. A scroll.
He began to read aloud. Stories, essays, fragments—some of it fiction, some of it possibly academic, none of it optional. He read in a solemn, droning cadence, pausing only to gesture that I join in. At times, we performed the text together like an absurd Socratic duet. This was not medicine. It was literary waterboarding.
The treatment drew attention.
Soon, Goldberg turned the whole ordeal into a dinner party. Somehow, he located several of my retired faculty colleagues and invited them, with their long-suffering wives, to my grandfather’s house. I wanted to talk to them—reconnect, reminisce—but the doctor stuck to me like a parasite with tenure. Wherever I went, he followed, reading, always reading.
My colleagues grew irritated and drifted off one by one, muttering about boundaries and bad acoustics. I tried to hide in the bean bag room—yes, this house apparently had a bean bag room—but the doctor found me, unfurled his accursed scroll, and picked up where he left off.
I realized, in that moment, I was trapped. Pinned inside a philosophical purgatory where the punishment wasn’t fire or ice, but relentless interpretation. Eternal footnotes. Bibliographic water torture. I would never leave. Not until I understood the real meaning of the text. Or until a full bladder awakened me.
Thankfully, the latter came first.
Cinemorphosis 
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