Arm-Wrestling My Way into Belonging

Last night, I had a dream so vivid it might as well have come with a recruitment brochure. Word had spread—apparently my reputation as the guy who could teach college football players to write sentences that didn’t cause nosebleeds had reached mythical status. Somewhere in South Carolina, perched on a beach with the casual arrogance of a luxury condo, a university decided they needed me. Urgently.

Some guy—I don’t remember his name, only that he had the calm urgency of a cult recruiter—convinced me to hop on a bus. The ride took five seconds. Not metaphorically. Five actual seconds. Blink and boom: there I was, standing on a beach so perfect it made the California coast look like an overhyped sandbox.

The air was humid but in a sensual, Southern Gothic sort of way. The kind of air that makes you forgive mosquitoes and contemplate linen pants. The sun was melting into the Atlantic like it had nowhere better to be. I was home, or something like it.

Coaches greeted me like I’d just been drafted into sainthood. Players clapped me on the back and called me “Coach,” which I didn’t correct because, frankly, it felt good. Then came the arm wrestling. One by one, I took them down like some middle-aged Hercules hopped up on tenure and protein powder. Elbow to the table, bicep to the heavens. I wasn’t just respected—I was essential.

It wasn’t about strength. It was about belonging. Every laugh, every handshake, every ridiculous display of masculine absurdity made me feel needed in a way that was almost embarrassing. I wasn’t just part of the team. I was the team.

I wanted to call my wife back in California, to tell her we were moving. I had found the Promised Land, and it came with free gym access and a faculty parking permit. But the joyous noise around me was too loud. The players were hooting, the coaches were laughing, and the ocean kept slapping the shore like it had something to prove. I’d call her later, I told myself.

Then I woke up.

The ceiling fan was rattling. My desire for dark roast coffee was pressing. And I was back in the real world, where my inbox was probably filled with late assignments and vague threats from the IT department.

Still, the dream stuck with me. Not because of the location, or the humidity, or the freakish arm strength—but because of the feeling. That feeling of being wanted. Of being part of something. Of mattering.

There is no substitute for that. None.