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  • The Man Who Lost His Mind Watching Himself Lose It

    The Man Who Lost His Mind Watching Himself Lose It

    The Man Who Lost His Mind to Watches.

    It’s a good title. It has the faint whiff of Russian absurdism about it—the kind of story Gogol might have written if he’d traded overcoats for dive bezels. And why not lose your mind to watches? In literature, men have unraveled over less. But absurdity only works when it rests on a bedrock of truth. So what truth does this title expose?

    First, let’s dispense with denial. There exists an entire subculture of men who have, in fact, lost their minds to watches. A device whose primary function is to tell the time becomes an object of longing, analysis, acquisition, liquidation, reacquisition, and emotional weather. Madness doesn’t arrive dramatically. It waits patiently in the wings while the enthusiast compares lume, case finishing, and bracelet tolerances.

    Should we be surprised? Not at all. Civilization is a museum of fixation. People lose their minds over limited-edition sneakers, boutique fountain pens, vintage Bordeaux, carbon-fiber bicycles, custom keyboards, Japanese denim, tactical knives, collectible toys, and canvas tote bags that signal the correct cultural tribe. Watches are merely one exhibit in the larger gallery of beautifully engineered distractions.

    As Jim Harrison observed, the danger of civilization is that you will waste your life on nonsense. The watch obsessive understands this perfectly. That’s the problem. He knows the spreadsheets, the forum debates, the late-night listings, and the ritualized buying and selling produce more regret than joy. The clarity is there. The behavior remains.

    And this is where the story turns.

    Because the true obsession is no longer the watches.

    Once awareness enters the room—once the collector recognizes the irrationality of his own pattern—a second, more corrosive fixation takes hold. He begins monitoring himself. Judging himself. Auditing every impulse. Each purchase is followed not just by buyer’s remorse, but by a darker thought: What is wrong with me?

    The watches become secondary. The real object of attention is his own perceived unraveling.

    Shame enters. Then melancholy. Then a low-grade anxiety that hums beneath every browsing session: Am I losing control? Am I wasting my life? Is this what I’ve become?

    At this point, the original title is no longer accurate.

    The man did not lose his mind to watches.

    He lost his mind watching himself lose his mind.

    This is Meta-Obsession Syndrome: the recursive condition in which the collector becomes more consumed by analyzing, fearing, and diagnosing his own obsession than by the objects that started it. The hobby no longer drives the anxiety. Self-surveillance does. The enthusiast becomes both patient and examiner, actor and critic, compulsive buyer and moral prosecutor.

    And here lies the cruel irony.

    The watches may occupy the wrist.
    But the real mechanism now running nonstop is the mind—tracking, measuring, and condemning itself in real time.

    The second obsession is always worse than the first.

  • When Watch Collecting Becomes Financial Infidelity

    When Watch Collecting Becomes Financial Infidelity

    Any honest account of watch addiction must confront its most uncomfortable chapter: financial infidelity.

    The watch obsessive does not merely inhabit a fever dream of dials and bezels. He is a consumer training his appetite the way a bodybuilder trains a muscle. Each purchase lowers resistance. Each box on the doorstep normalizes the next. What begins as an occasional indulgence becomes a rhythm, then a pattern, then a supply chain.

    At first, his wife is charmed. A parcel here and there. A harmless hobby. A grown man treating himself to a toy.

    But frequency is the tell.

    Soon the packages arrive too often, too predictably, like clockwork. The enthusiast recognizes the danger before anyone says a word. And so the hobby evolves. Deliveries rerouted to the office. A friend’s address. A rented mailbox. The collection expands. The domestic narrative is quietly edited.

    The line is crossed when the money changes categories.

    Vacation funds become “temporary reallocations.” Home projects become “later.” College savings become “untouched in principle.” And somewhere along the way, a Swiss luxury watch appears that cannot be explained without a level of honesty the buyer is no longer prepared to offer.

    Behavior adapts to the secrecy.

    Watches are swapped during the day so no single piece attracts attention. New arrivals are unboxed during strategic windows of solitude. Lume checks are performed under blankets like a teenager hiding a flashlight after lights-out. YouTube reviews are watched with the sound off.

    To the outside world, he is a responsible husband and father.

    Privately, he operates a parallel identity.

    This condition has a name: Domestic Double Life Disorder—the psychological split in which a man performs stability and restraint in public while privately sustaining a covert economy of acquisition, concealment, and rationalization.

    For some, the weight of the split becomes unbearable. Guilt accumulates. The numbers add up. The secrecy grows exhausting. And one day, the buying stops.

    The result is not relief.

    It is silence.

    No packages. No tracking numbers. No late-night research. No private surge of anticipation. Life becomes honest—and strangely flat. For a man accustomed to the adrenaline of concealment and the dopamine of arrival, integrity feels less like freedom and more like withdrawal.

    This is the danger point.

    Because if honesty feels empty and secrecy felt alive, the relapse writes itself.

    The addresses reappear. The justifications return. The private economy resumes. The double life feels, once again, familiar. Efficient. Even comforting.

    For some watch addicts, deceit is not the problem.

    It is the habitat.

  • From Disco Peacock to Tool Watch Puritan

    From Disco Peacock to Tool Watch Puritan

    Let’s stop pretending.
    Society trains you to show off.

    The instinct is ancient, social, and embarrassingly persistent. We preen, we posture, we curate. Most of us never really leave adolescence—we just upgrade the props.

    I know this because I spent decades marinating in a culture of spectacular bad taste.

    In junior high, I came of age during the full fever of the Disco Era. I wore Angel Flight bell bottoms, polyester paisley shirts, puka shells, gold chains, and mesh tank tops that left very little to the imagination and even less to dignity.

    Wardrobe was only the beginning.

    I studied dance the way a law student studies case law. I memorized the moves of Gladys Knight and the Pips’ backup singers. I practiced the Funky Robot. I absorbed choreography from Soul Train like a sponge soaking up hair spray.

    The effort paid off. First place at the Earl Warren Junior High Friday Night Dance Contest.

    Applause, it turns out, is a powerful drug.

    Dancing wasn’t enough. I moved on to Olympic weightlifting and, by thirteen, ranked number one in the nation. But then my mother accidentally bought me Pumping Iron, confusing bodybuilding with weightlifting.

    That book changed everything.

    Why chase numbers when you could chase admiration?

    I pivoted to bodybuilding. By 1981, I was runner-up in Mr. Teenage San Francisco. In high school, I kept dumbbells in my car trunk. Before going into restaurants, I’d do a quick parking-lot pump session, then walk inside with my chest inflated like a parade balloon.

    Any visual gains were usually canceled out by flop sweat.

    Still, the pattern was set: life as performance.

    Fast forward to 2008. A forty-six-year-old man stands in Las Vegas, staring at a massive U-Boat watch.

    Same kid. Same posture. Same need to be seen.

    I might have stayed on Show-Off Road indefinitely, but in 2011—one year into fatherhood of twin girls—something shifted. My wife and I were sitting in a parenting class at a community center. While other parents discussed sleep schedules, I looked down at my 52mm Invicta Subaqua.

    The lume was terrible.

    This detail, which had never bothered me before, suddenly felt like a moral failure. A diver that couldn’t glow? Fraud. Deception. Civilization in decline.

    That irritation metastasized into obsession.

    Within months, I sold all fifty-five Invictas and replaced them with the kings of illumination: Seiko.

    The transformation felt profound. I had moved from oversized spectacle to serious tool watches. No more costume jewelry. No more peacocking. Now I was a man of function. Utility. Purpose.

    I told myself I had matured.

    In reality, I had entered a new phase: Functional Virtue Signaling—using tool watches not just for capability, but as quiet evidence of seriousness, restraint, and anti-flash credibility.

    The performance didn’t end.

    The costume just changed.

    Yes, I was grateful for the transition. Tool watches brought discipline. They rewarded substance over spectacle. But the deeper truth remained: I was still hunting. Still scanning. Still chasing the next piece of steel salvation.

    Addiction had simply traded sequins for lume.

    And yet, a real tool watch does teach one enduring lesson.

    Ostentation is hollow.

    Flash fades. Scale becomes absurd. Attention moves on.

    Function endures.

    For the watch obsessive, a true tool watch is less a status object than a reminder—a quiet lantern in the cave—warning that the urge to impress is the oldest and most expensive disease in the hobby.

  • The Watch Obsessive’s Imaginary Audience

    The Watch Obsessive’s Imaginary Audience

    Every watch obsessive has asked himself the question.

    If I were on television tonight, what would I wear?

    Not what would he say. Not whether he would be interesting, articulate, or memorable.

    No—the real question is the watch.

    Would it be bold or understated? Steel or titanium? Something iconic enough to signal taste, but restrained enough to suggest confidence? Would the case slip cleanly beneath the cuff? Would the host notice? Would the camera catch the glint at just the right angle?

    And most important: would the watch help create the impression—the myth—that this was a man worth watching?

    There is, of course, a problem with this line of thinking.

    He is not going on television.

    No producer is outside his house. No late-night booker is reviewing his résumé. There is no green room. No makeup artist. No segment titled Author and Cultural Commentator Discusses Bezel Alignment.

    And yet the fantasy persists.

    After decades of watching politicians, actors, and financial pundits subtly brandishing their wrists on camera, the association is burned in: television is the natural habitat of the watch. The wrist, after all, was built for close-ups.

    Soon a strange dissatisfaction sets in. Wearing a watch in ordinary life begins to feel incomplete. The object has no audience. No lighting. No narrative context. A diver at the grocery store. A GMT at the dentist. A chronograph while buying paper towels.

    The stage is missing.

    And still, he plans.

    This is Broadcast Readiness Syndrome—the quiet, persistent conviction that one must remain camera-ready at all times, because a moment of sudden visibility might arrive without warning. Today a faculty meeting. Tomorrow: a viral clip. Tonight, obscurity. Tomorrow, perhaps, Colbert.

    He knows this is irrational. He reminds himself daily.

    You are not on television.
     No one is looking.
     Relax.

    The logic changes nothing.

    The watches are still chosen with an imaginary audience in mind. The cuff is still adjusted. The wrist is still rotated, ever so slightly, as if a camera might be hiding near the coffee machine.

    Then comes the dream.

    He is backstage. The suit is perfect. The lights are warm. The host smiles and gestures him toward the chair. The band plays a tasteful sting.

    He sits.

    The conversation begins.

    Halfway through the first answer, he glances down.

    His wrist is bare.

    No watch.

    This is the true nightmare of the watch obsessive—not public embarrassment, not a failed joke, not an awkward interview.

    Exposure without branding.

    And he wakes up, heart racing, already thinking about what he’ll wear tomorrow.

    Just in case.

  • When Self-Improvement Makes Your Watch Addiction Worse

    When Self-Improvement Makes Your Watch Addiction Worse

    Here is an unpleasant truth about watch addiction: you don’t eliminate it.
    You replace it.

    Let that sit for a moment.

    Now here’s the second unpleasant truth: self-improvement—the very thing you hope will save you—may actually make your watch addiction worse.

    Consider Exhibit A: December, 2017.

    I was at a Christmas party feeling miserable. Two hundred forty-five pounds. Feet aching. Energy low. I found myself talking to a celebrity chef and former powerlifter—the kind of man who treats body composition like a moral philosophy. His advice was simple: lose the weight.

    So I went to war.

    Yogurt for breakfast. Protein and salad for lunch. Protein and vegetables for dinner. At night, a tiny apple—my “satiety apple,” the culinary equivalent of a ration in a survival bunker.

    Eight months later, I was down forty-five pounds.

    At 200, I wasn’t lean so much as economized. Sitting on a piano bench hurt because the butt padding was gone. But I looked sharp. Very sharp.

    And that’s when the trouble began.

    The fitness journey was supposed to quiet my watch obsession. Instead, it fed it. The slimmer I became, the more I noticed how watches looked on my wrist. I wasn’t just wearing timepieces anymore. I was curating a silhouette.

    Health had quietly mutated into performance.

    This is the Identity Optimization Spiral—the moment self-improvement stops being about function and becomes aesthetic management. Body, clothes, watches, posture, lighting—everything coordinated into a single ongoing presentation of the self.

    I told myself I was pursuing discipline.
    What I was really pursuing was approval.

    And approval requires accessories.

    So the watches multiplied—not because I needed them, but because my “new body” deserved the right visual punctuation.

    The story, of course, did not end in triumph. Weight rarely leaves permanently; it negotiates. Mine drifted back upward over time—not all the way, but enough to remind me that maintenance is not a phase. It’s a permanent job.

    And that’s the real parallel between dieting and watch restraint.

    Both run on willpower.
    Both require constant vigilance.
    Both demand energy.

    Imagine riding an exercise bike at full speed, indefinitely. You can do it for a while. You sweat. You grind. You feel heroic.

    Then you slow down.

    Then you stop.

    And the moment you stop pedaling, gravity returns. The diet loosens. The browsing begins. The credit card warms up. Worse, the exhaustion from all that heroic restraint makes the relapse stronger.

    This is the cruel math of self-control: willpower is a fuel tank, not a personality trait.

    The more you burn, the more violently you eventually refuel.

    Looking honestly at addiction—whether to watches, food, or the fantasy of perfect self-management—is humbling. It suggests something most improvement culture refuses to admit:

    We are not systems to be optimized.
    We are appetites trying to manage other appetites.

    Sometimes we succeed.
    Sometimes we substitute one obsession for another.
    And sometimes the search for the cure becomes just another addiction wearing a healthier costume.

  • Life Inside the Watch Relapse Cycle

    Life Inside the Watch Relapse Cycle

    For the watch obsessive, the most seductive experience is not the purchase.
    It’s the quiet and the possibility that his addiction is over.

    Every so often, something strange happens. The mind clears. The forums go unread. The YouTube algorithm loses its grip. The collection—miraculously—feels complete. No gaps. No missing category. No late-night searches for “best travel GMT under $5,000.”

    For a few fragile days, he wonders:

    Is this it?
     Am I… cured?
     Is this what normal people feel like?

    This state—call it Horological Remission—can be triggered by real life intruding. A demanding project at work. A family crisis. A trip to Maui where the ocean is more compelling than ceramic bezel technology. Or simple immersion in a good show—say, Fallout, where Walton Goggins and Kyle MacLachlan are busy navigating the apocalypse while, for once, the obsessive is not thinking about lug widths.

    During these rare intervals, he lives like a civilian. He checks the time without evaluating the watch. He moves through the day unaccompanied by reference numbers. He almost forgets that the phrase “micro-adjust clasp” exists.

    Hope appears.

    It never lasts.

    Because the obsession does not disappear. It waits.

    Somewhere in the unconscious lives the Octopus—patient, silent, its tentacles coiled around the deeper circuitry of attention. All it needs is a spark. A visual. A passing image. A drop of lighter fluid.

    Maybe it’s a scene in Homeland. A lean operative checks his watch. The obsessive leans forward.

    That looks like a Mudman.

    Now the cascade begins.

    Model number search.
    Variant comparison.
    Sapphire or mineral?
    Then: Full Metal series.
    Then: silver vs. black.
    Then: forum threads debating coating durability in “real-world tactical conditions,” most of which involve typing at a desk.

    This is Trigger Cascade—the rapid cognitive chain reaction in which a single exposure detonates into hours of research, comparison, and low-grade acquisition planning.

    Meanwhile, Homeland continues.

    The obsessive has no idea what’s happening.

    He cannot explain the plot, the characters, or the geopolitical stakes. But he now possesses a working knowledge of shock resistance standards across three generations of G-Shock metallurgy.

    This condition is known as Narrative Displacement Syndrome: the loss of engagement with the original activity as attention is hijacked by watch research, resulting in the peculiar outcome of knowing the reference number but not the story.

    At some point, awareness returns.

    He looks up from his phone. The episode is over. The room is quiet. Ten browser tabs glow like evidence.

    The Octopus has him again.

    In that moment, he experiences Relapse Lucidity—the painful clarity of recognizing the pattern while continuing to scroll.

    He may even feel cinematic about it. Like Charlton Heston on the beach at the end of Planet of the Apes, shaking his fist at the ruined monument of his attention span.

    You maniacs! You did it!

    Then another thought appears, calm and practical:

    If this is a relapse, should someone be filming me as I do my Charles Heston impersonation? And if that’s the case, should I be wearing the Black Bay… or the Planet Ocean?

    And just like that, the cycle resets.

  • Why I Bought the G-Shock Frogman

    Why I Bought the G-Shock Frogman

    If you’re buying the G-Shock Frogman GWF-1000-1JF, you need to abandon one illusion immediately: the fantasy that you are a solemn, high-minded “serious watch buyer.”

    Yes, the Frogman is a legitimate tool—ISO-rated, solar-powered, atomic-syncing, built like a bunker. It tracks tides. It handles world time. It could probably survive a minor meteor event.

    But let’s be honest.

    The Frogman is not a symbol of horological gravitas.
    It is a giant, unapologetic wrist toy.

    And that’s the point.

    This is not the watch of a restrained aesthete sipping espresso while discussing movement finishing. This is the watch of a twelve-year-old who never lost his appetite for adventure. The Frogman doesn’t whisper refinement. It shouts, Let’s go break something. It belongs just as comfortably on your wrist while you’re teaching rhetoric as it does while you’re wandering the house in gym shorts and a robe, pretending you might dive into the Pacific at any moment.

    So stop apologizing.

    Look at the thing. Smile.

    You’ve spent years marinating in the mythology of seriousness—heritage, prestige, restraint, the quiet dignity of brushed steel. Enough. Watches were never meant to be solemn artifacts of personal identity. They were meant to delight the eye, engage the hand, and give you a small surge of pleasure every time you check the time.

    What you’re practicing now is Gravitas Shedding—the psychological act of discarding the heavy costume of the “serious collector” and admitting a simple truth: if the hobby isn’t fun, it isn’t sustainable.

    Function still matters, of course. The watch should be well made, reliable, and usable. But once those boxes are checked, joy becomes the real criterion. The worst fate for any watch isn’t inadequacy—it’s boredom.

    Many enthusiasts have told me every collection needs at least one G-Shock for exactly this reason. A pressure valve. A reminder that watches don’t have to be precious.

    So after fifteen years of on-again, off-again longing, I finally did it.

    Last month I checked Sakura and saw the Frogman was out of stock. Prices on eBay were absurd. I assumed the window had closed. Case dismissed. Desire filed away.

    Then it reappeared.

    $440.
    $506 after shipping.

    Decision made.

    Now I have a new assignment: learn the dual-time function and actually use the thing when I travel. If I’m going to own a watch that can track the world, I might as well let it earn its keep.

    And I’ll admit it—I’m looking forward to the arrival more than I expected.

    I own beautiful mechanical divers. But when I picture myself in front of a classroom, talking about argument structure and logical fallacies, I don’t see a polished luxury piece on my wrist.

    I see the Frogman.

    Big. Black. Slightly ridiculous. Completely confident.

    Will it become my daily watch?
    Will it replace the others?
    Will it become my signature?

    That’s the experiment.

    The watch is on the way.

    We’ll see what happens.

  • G-Shock University: Studying for the Frogman Final Exam

    G-Shock University: Studying for the Frogman Final Exam

    My next personal project is to graduate from what I now call G-Shock University. Some people study Spanish. Others learn Italian. I, apparently, am trying to become conversational in Mode Logic.

    This is not my first attempt. Over the past twenty years, I’ve owned half a dozen G-Shocks, and every time the same thing happened: I opened the manual, felt like a tourist staring at a subway map written in hieroglyphics, panicked, and eventually sold or gave the watch away. I didn’t own the G-Shock. The G-Shock owned my anxiety.

    Not speaking the language of modes has been humiliating—like a prizefighter getting knocked out before the announcer finishes his name. But this time I want a comeback. This time I want fluency. Specifically, I want to master the Module 3184, the operating system inside the watch I’ve coveted for more than a decade: the digital Frogman GWF-1000.

    I don’t own the Frogman yet. First, I must earn it. I’m currently studying the operating guide like a nervous graduate student preparing for orals. I suffer from Mode Impostor Syndrome—the uneasy conviction that I am intellectually unqualified to own a feature-rich digital watch, combined with the quiet terror that someone will ask, “How do you switch time zones?” and I’ll freeze like a deer in tactical headlights.

    The interface is simple in theory: four buttons.
    Top left: A.
    Top right: B.
    Bottom left: C.
    Bottom right: D.

    Simple. Elegant. Also, somehow, psychologically menacing.

    Button C scrolls through the modes—the linguistic equivalent of changing verb tenses. My goal is modest. I want Timekeeping Mode set to LAX as my home city. I want World Time Mode so I can toggle easily when traveling to Miami, Cabo, or Maui. Diving logs, tide data, countdown timers, alarms—these are elective courses. I am here for conversational proficiency, not a doctorate.

    The manual’s tone is reassuring. Every complex procedure begins with a comforting phrase: First Thing You Should Do.

    The first thing, apparently, is to sit near a window. Already this feels less like a watch and more like a houseplant.

    From Timekeeping Mode, I hold A until the city code flashes. Then D moves east, B moves west, and eventually I land on LAX. Press A again to exit. Supposedly this locks in the Home City and sets the time.

    Supposedly.

    Here is where my second condition emerges: Mode Anxiety—the persistent fear that one wrong press will erase home time, activate some obscure subroutine, or send the watch into a digital wilderness from which it may never return.

    Page 6 introduces the Dual Time display. Press A to toggle between date and the selected World Time. This raises a terrifying question:
    Am I viewing another city… or accidentally reprogramming my home city to Miami?

    The last thing I need is to wake up in Torrance and discover I’m living psychologically in Florida.

    Manual time setting is even more daunting. Twelve variables: city code, DST, 12/24 format, seconds, minutes, hours, illumination duration, power saving, tone, day, month, year. This is no longer watch ownership. This is municipal governance.

    One setting, however, brings joy: button tone. Silence is essential. In Timekeeping Mode, hold A, press C nine times, toggle to Mute with D, press A to exit. At last, a victory. The watch will no longer beep like a microwave with opinions.

    Other questions remain.
    Do I need to manage DST, or will the radio signal handle it?
    How exactly do I move cleanly between Home and World Time without triggering a digital incident?

    At this point, I suspect what I really need is a one-hour Zoom session with a Professor of G-Shock Studies.

    Because this is no longer about a watch. This is about conquest.

    Like Ahab stalking the whale, I want to master the module and earn the right to wear the Frogman with confidence. What I’m really fighting is Frogman Qualification Anxiety—the belief that ownership of a high-end G-Shock must be earned through technical mastery, as if the purchase were a certification exam rather than a retail transaction.

    If I pass, I won’t just own a watch.

    I’ll finally be fluent.

  • Beauty Isn’t Enough: The Moment Desire Meets Reality

    Beauty Isn’t Enough: The Moment Desire Meets Reality

    We are, most of us, walking around with a quiet fracture. Something missing. Something we believe can be restored if only we find the right object, the right achievement, the right arrangement of circumstances. The trouble is that the very strategies we use to make ourselves whole often deepen the crack.

    Citizen Kane is the classic case study. Charles Foster Kane acquires everything—wealth, art, palaces, influence—only to die alone, whispering “Rosebud” like a man calling into an empty room. For all his possessions, he never possessed what he actually wanted: love. The sled was not valuable. It was a memory of unconditional belonging, the one thing money could not purchase.

    Once the unconscious decides that objects can deliver emotional completion, the trap is set. The shopping becomes symbolic. The acquisition becomes therapeutic. And the disappointment becomes inevitable.

    I would like to believe I’m immune to this logic. I am not.

    I’m not trying to buy love, exactly. What captures me is beauty. A gunmetal sports car. A finely finished watch. Once the image enters my field of vision, it begins to work on me. Beauty has a narcotic quality. It doesn’t argue. It persuades.

    When I was nine, my father and I would slow the car to stare at Corvettes and my personal holy object, the Opel GT. We didn’t own them. That hardly mattered. Looking was enough to induce a quiet intoxication.

    Some forms of beauty age well. Twenty years ago my wife and I bought a framed Botticelli Primavera from an antique store. It hangs in our living room today. I still find myself studying the figures, pulled into the scene as if it were unfolding in slow motion. The painting asks nothing from me except attention.

    Watches work differently.

    A beautiful watch does not merely sit on the wall. It demands a relationship. It asks to be worn, justified, integrated into daily life. And here the problem begins.

    I’m drawn to intricate designs—chronographs, textured dials, bold contrasts, mechanical drama. These pieces photograph beautifully. They mesmerize under good lighting. They whisper, You are a man of taste.

    But then I put them on.

    The dial is busy. The legibility suffers. The weight feels wrong. The watch stays in the box.

    That’s the gap—the quiet but decisive chasm between aesthetic admiration and lived use. Many of the most beautiful watches I’ve owned became box queens: admired, respected, and essentially abandoned.

    A fellow collector once told me he doesn’t mind owning watches he never wears. He thinks of them as wall art. People collect paintings for beauty; he collects watches the same way.

    I can’t do that.

    Unworn watches don’t calm me. They make me uneasy, like unfinished obligations. A watch that isn’t part of daily life feels less like art and more like a small, expensive mistake.

    Years ago, a neighbor let me drive his black Corvette—a childhood Rosebud made real. Within minutes, the spell broke. The cabin was cramped. The ride was harsh. Every bump transmitted directly into my spine. I handed back the keys with relief.

    The car looked magnificent. Living with it would have been miserable.

    That experience clarified something I’ve come to accept across watches, cars, and most objects of desire:

    Beauty alone is not enough.

    At some point, every enthusiast discovers a personal boundary—what might be called a Functional Integrity Threshold. It’s the moment when aesthetic appeal loses its authority because the object fails in comfort, usability, or daily harmony.

    Below that threshold, beauty is intoxicating.
    Beyond it, beauty becomes irrelevant.

    Give me both—form and function in alignment—or give me neither. Anything else is just another Rosebud waiting to disappoint.

  • Bracelet Ambivalence Disorder: When Steel Looks Right But Feels Wrong 

    Bracelet Ambivalence Disorder: When Steel Looks Right But Feels Wrong 

    About two years ago, after more than two decades in the watch hobby, I developed a new condition. It arrived quietly, without warning, sometime around 2024.

    I became ambivalent about bracelets.

    I suspect the trouble began with my Seiko SLA055. It came on Seiko’s chocolate-bar rubber—an arrangement I never learned to love. The sliding metal keeper felt cheap, the rubber looked underdressed, and the whole thing struck me as unworthy of a watch north of three thousand dollars.

    So I did what any rational enthusiast would do. I spent over a thousand dollars chasing the perfect strap.

    Most were disappointments. One survived: the FKM Divecore. For a brief moment, peace. Then came the study about FKM and the whispers of “forever chemicals,” and suddenly my sanctuary felt like a toxic waste site.

    Back to the drawing board.

    I finally bought the Seiko bracelet from the SLA077. Four hundred dollars. And I have to admit: it transformed the watch. Steel gave it authority. Gravity. Presence. The same thing happened with my SLA023 and the Tuna SBBN049. On bracelets, these watches don’t just look good—they look heroic. Complete. Like they’ve put on their uniforms.

    So what’s the problem?

    The obvious answers come first. Bracelets are heavier. Links press into the wrist at odd angles. Sizing becomes a seasonal engineering project as weight and weather shift. All true.

    But none of that explains the deeper resistance.

    Because the truth is, this isn’t about comfort. It’s about identity.

    Straps represent something to me: restraint, practicality, anti-bling minimalism. Being “the strap guy” feels like a moral position. Seven watches on rubber feels orderly. Clean. Controlled. And in the strange psychology of collecting, control is another word for happiness.

    Except the mind doesn’t stay controlled for long.

    After months of strap purity, I start craving variety. Maybe one bracelet. Maybe two. A little diversity. A little steel.

    And that’s when the real problem begins.

    The moment a watch goes on a bracelet, it becomes a box queen.

    I tell myself I’m saving it for special occasions. But special occasions turn out to mean a birthday dinner twice a year. Meanwhile, the watch sits in the box, looking magnificent and doing absolutely nothing.

    This morning, after a post-workout nap, I woke up with a plan. Enough of this. I would remove the bracelets from the three offenders and restore order.

    Then I opened the watch box.

    And there they were—those watches on steel—looking perfect. Finished. Complete. Like museum pieces that had finally been framed correctly.

    I couldn’t do it.

    So here I am typing this while wearing my Seiko Uemura SLA051 on an MM300 waffle, fully aware of a simple truth:

    If this watch were on a bracelet, it would still be sitting in the box.

    At this point, I don’t see a solution. I’ve stopped looking for one. This is simply another occupational hazard of the enthusiast’s life.

    I suffer from Bracelet Ambivalence Disorder—the chronic inability to commit to either straps or bracelets, marked by alternating attraction and avoidance. Bracelets are admired. Straps are worn. The heart wants steel. The wrist wants rubber.

    If anyone else suffers from this condition, please make yourself known.

    Misery, like stainless steel, feels lighter when shared.